I Love When God Speaks

Have you ever noticed that when God is working on a certain area of your life, He continually puts the same message in front of you in several formats?

This morning as I was scrolling through FB, I came across this article. It definitely caught my attention after my blog post from yesterday.

Thank you Lord for continuing to feed me what I need to hear.


A Moment of Truth — Conviction in Process

Today is Sunday, January 13, 2019. Only 13 days into the new year and already I chose to stay in bed instead of going to worship. All week I have looked forward to today’s sermon, the second in a series entitled, REBORN; yet this morning, it seemed unimportant. I yearned for the peace of sleep and the silence of being alone. In the silence, I am able to reflect and to sometimes still the ‘NOISE’ and the ‘SPINNING’ emotions and thoughts that grow with each new event of every day resulting in mental and spiritual overload. As an introvert, this has been a constant struggle — finding quiet to still my mind.

As our pastor preached last Sunday from Jeremiah 17:5-9, I eagerly took notes and knew beyond a doubt, he was speaking directly to me as he covered five key points to be REBORN or to use my word – RENEWED. I know God was speaking to me and that the thoughts our pastor shared would be used by God in the days and weeks ahead as I methodically seek to RENEW my spirit in the chaos of this life. (Sermon may been heard by clicking here.}

In the silence of this morning, I was stunned by what came to the surface of my mind — “I am angry with God”. A simple statement of fact — boldly stated — no argument, no denial. I was quick to accept it as truth.

So now what?

At this point I’m not sure of the root of my anger, but I do know that as I seek, God will reveal answers.

Does God deserve my anger? No. He is God. He sacrificed His only son so that I can spend eternity in Heaven. It is only by His Grace and Mercy that I have the option of eternal life in Heaven.

Do I need to understand the root of my anger? Yes, I do for this is by all means a convicting awareness. Anger negatively impacts our ability to have an intimate relationship with others and it certainly is a hindrance to my spiritual relationship with my Lord.

15 “‘I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! 16 So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. Revelations 3:15-16 ESV

I do not desire to be lukewarm nor to be spit out of my Savior’s mouth. Therefore, I will continue to spend time “in the silence” as God continues to convict me of the truth of my current spiritual state and reawaken me to a RENEWED hope and spiritual closeness with Jesus — one conviction, one revelation, one heart change at a time.

“… being confident of this very thing, that He was has begun a good work in you (ME) will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” Phil 1:6 NKJV

AcknowledgementsPastor Jared Burt for sharing his message last Sunday and using these scriptures as part of his message.


RENEW — to make like new; restore to freshness; to make new spiritually

As I look back on 2018, I see a year of difficulties, challenges, heartache, despair, depression, loneliness, brushes with death, and isolation. Not that good didn’t happen – for indeed it did. New relationships were formed, visits filled with laughter, death avoided, broken bones mended, and life carried on even as I often set still unable to absorb or face the emotional tumult within.

Life and emotions seemed out of control as I moved from one emotional crisis to another – many times frozen and unable to acknowledge the fears, sadness, and heartache that gripped my soul, suffocating me in attempts to steal my joy and even my life. My heart grieved with each new challenge, each new trial as grieving squeezed life from me, tears – gallons of tears flowed – some down my cheeks and at other times drowning my inner being as I carried my burdens alone – not sharing – not wanting to add to the burdens of those I love – pretending to “live” as I slowly died inside; feeling that no one could truly understand my sorrow. Afterall, life around me was good, right?

Broken bones were again strong, time was spent with grandchildren as they learned to drive, retirement finally came allowing time with spouse and travel, grown children were doing good despite ups and downs, excitement of graduations & college of a first-born grandchild, new family members through marriage and a special DNA cousin find were part of 2018. There had been so many good things along the way. Yet, even as I tried to count blessings, the loss of the “normal” use of my ankle, age related issues continued and accentuated my aging body as I physically and mentally slowed down, becoming an “old woman” or so it seemed. At times my only joy seemed to be food, which only added to the depression as I gained weight, continuing to suffer in silence as my relationships changed, drifting away and leaving me feeling isolated even when I was in the midst of others. Attempts to restore myself spiritually failed. My physician of over 20 years said he had never seen me so low as he increased depression medication – “another pill! Oh great, that’s really helpful!” I thought as I left his office.

 Thanksgiving finally comes and there is a slow – albeit very slow shift in attitude and outlook. As I continued to try to count my blessings while at the same time lamenting the loss of so many things dear to me – God seemed to speak –

Marilyn, this is YOUR time, find JOY in it!

It was then that I knew that I was turning the corner. 2019 would be a better year as my state of mind and heart began to change. I had not selected a “word of the year” in 2018 but today I would say my word for 2018 was “despair”. As I look toward 2019 and continue to listen to my Lord, I know that my word for 2019 is RENEW.  I’ve already started the process by joining Weight Watchers, reducing depression medication by 50% with a goal of 100% reduction, changing my outlook on life, and “letting go” of all things that are outside of my control. I no longer allow my mind, my heart to dwell on the past or on negative outcomes. Instead I am looking forward to 2019 and to learning all that God will teach me about the simple but powerful word, RENEW. As the Holy Spirit reawakens my spiritual awareness and reinvigorates my relationship with Jesus, I will DELIGHT in Him knowing that in all things he will renew my strength, give me wings to soar and a desire to run the race of life with a renewed energy as I seek Him each day.  

But, those who wait on the Lord shall RENEW their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31 NKJV

Capitalization in scripture added for emphasis.

Written 12/21/2018; Published 1/7/2019

Former atheist astrophysicist, Sarah Salviander, explains her journey to Christianity.

A long but excellent read.

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Testimony of former atheist Sarah Salviander. She is a research scientist in astronomy and astrophysics at the University of Texas.

“I was born in the U.S., but grew up in Canada. My parents were socialists and political activists who thought British Columbia would be a better place for us to live, since it had the only socialist government in North America at the time. My parents were also atheists, though they eschewed that label in favor of “agnostic.” They were kind, loving, and moral, but religion played no part in my life. Instead, my childhood revolved around education, particularly science. I remember how important it was to my parents that my brother and I did well in school.

I grew up in the 1970s and 1980s, a time when science fiction was enjoying a renaissance, thanks largely to the popularity of Star Wars. I remember how fascinated I was by…

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Jesus – The Life-Light


The Life-Light was the real thing: Every person entering Life he brings into Light. He was in the world, the world was there through him, and yet the world didn’t even notice. He came to his own people, but they didn’t want him. But whoever did want him, who believed he was who he claimed and would do what he said, He made to be their true selves, their child-of-God selves. These are the God-begotten, not blood-begotten, not flesh-begotten, not sex-begotten. (John 1:9-13 MSG)

Do You Stumble? Do You?

Though Christians be not kept altogether from falling, yet thay are kept from falling altogether. William Secker

The Lord directs the steps of the godly. though they stumble, they will never fail, for The Lord holds them by the hand. Psalms 37:23-24

The Only Question That Truly Matters in Life

There is only one question that truly matters in our lives. Do you know Jesus? The answer to all other questions may impact your earthly life. But the answer to this one simple question, “Do you know Jesus?” will impact you for eternity.

If you do not know Jesus, I challenge you to find a Bible and to read the book of John.

Accurate Understanding of Self

…Living then, as every one of you does, in pure grace, it’s important that you not misinterpret yourselves as people who are bringing this goodness to God. No, God brings it all to you. The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us, not by what we are and what we do for him. Romans 12:3 The Message